Ideas versus Beliefs

The usual argument I hear or talk about is how we kill for beliefs.  We fight for them.  Whereas ideas are far more malleable. You can be wrong with an idea more often and more comfortably than you can with a belief. 

The thing that has me wondering now is why we feel the need to push beliefs on others.  It isn't enough to believe them.  Instead we force others to see as we do and believe as we do.  Is it gratifying?  Does it reassure you that you are right?

In a way it seems the need to convert others to your beliefs is a sign of a weak argument or belief.  Or just perhaps a sign of character.  It shouldn't matter what others believe.  The point remains, it is what you believe.  Inform others if you feel the need, but there is a difference between informing and stuffing your beliefs down someone's throat.

I'm ranting a bit today.  Apologies.

Being a loner.

I was once told if you were academically gifted or bright, chances were good you would be lonely most of your life.  You wouldn't be understood, you wouldn't fit in.  That being said, that doesn't mean there is anything wrong with you or the people who don't understand you.

If you are lucky there will be a handful of people in your life that will understand you.  A handful.  That is disturbingly few, but also a lot in a way.  That doesn't make much sense, but I am prone to ramble.

I guess what I am trying to say is that I'm okay with that.  The freedom that comes with knowing you will not be fully understood or accepted by almost everyone you ever meet really let me stop caring about pleasing everyone.  I am less prone to apologize to everyone.  Hide myself from everyone.   If I am really lucky 3-5 people will get me.  Then I have my monkeysphere.  Then every one else.

That knowledge, that I will be lonely for most of my life in one way or another was the most freeing thing I've heard in 23 years.

Surprise?

"Concentrate your attention on cultivating changes that feel exciting and life-enhancing."

I want to be unpredictable and innovative.  I feel like a better person when I do.  Little discoveries and surprises make my soul happy.  Learning something every day isn't enough.  I want to be surprised.  Life is a discovery and an adventure.