Thoughts on yolo

I dislike the "you only live once" mentality. It encourages a lot of amazing things and really stupid ones too. We can do better.

Today I spent time with the man I love, cooked for a big party with lots of experimenting and had tea and lots of great conversations afterwards. I did what I loved all day. Ignoring going to the post office, but I loved the accomplished feeling I got after.

Anyways, life is short and precious. Yolo isn't about trying crazy stuff, it's about living every day to its fullest potential. Doing what you love and changing peoples' lives.

Took the photo yesterday

After closing last night at work I sat outside for 15 minutes. No distractions, nothing. I could just feel myself relax and became aware of the clutter in my head. Usually long showers, sleep or yoga help alleviate that. Last night however I just needed that time alone with nothing to do or think.

Plus more doodling. Let's face it. Every once in a while we need silence.

Gotta do, what you gotta do.

In a conversation today about how your mood can effect others this phrase came up. I naturally ignore fake it till you make it, but in terms of mood this was awesome. When I make myself smile and cheery I often get happier. Dancing around to happy music usually cheers me up to. Just as changing your walk can change your mood, so can a lot of other activities.

The same applies to negative emotions, but I don't want to fake anger till I'm actually angry at work. No thank you.

As silly as it sounds I like tricking myself into feeling better. I smiled more yesterday, it helped. I want my joy, excitement and passion to be infectious. Not my frustrations. Also helps to work some place I love.

Nothing fancy.

I need to clear my mind, but until then I need to smile more. I have so much to be thankful for and happy about. Can't get bogged down by distractions.

Also, the pen I used today was crap. Need a different one.

Go for it!

Sometimes you can't work a miracle. Dreams get postponed. That doesn't mean you give up. Keep making a difference. There is always more than one way.

Pick your battles well

There are times to be polite. To please others even if it isn't what you want. There are also times to stand your ground on what is right for you. It isn't necessarily rude to stand your ground. Just pick your battles and stay true to yourself.

No one is awesome at everything.

Some natural behaviors don't help you succeed at work. Vague, but true. Sometimes coaching to change those behaviors can make you defensive.

No one is awesome at everything. Admit you suck at doing it a certain way. Try and be aware of it so you don't slip back into that behavior and work at it every chance you get! Improving those skills will help you succeed. You want to and if people are coaching you, they want you to as well.

Don't feel bad about doing nice things

We do lots of nice things and them beat ourselves up about any inconvenience we may have caused trying to be nice. Get over it. Be nice and enjoy it. Feeling guilty taints the while gesture.

Work styles

This one seems really obvious. Still, it's important to talk about. I work best alone, with music or videos playing and usually too many things going on. When others see me work it can be amusing.

I have my my desktop with two screens. My phone. My laptop sometimes too. Plus my kindle or sketchbook as well. The thing is, that way works for me.

When I see others work differently I need to not judge. Be true to how you work. You do your best work that way. Early in the morning, late at night, outside, at a desk, sofa or bed. Don't be pressured to do it the "right" way.

Late night ponderings

I really should be sleeping.

However, I was thinking about how quickly you can damage your credit or GPA and how much longer it takes to fix those mistakes. On one hand it really, really sucks. On the other, it is completely worth it. Undeniably.

Make glorious mistakes and take the years, if not decades to fix them. No one is perfect. Everybody has their slow fixes.

Wait for it.... NOW!

Somethings take forever to happen, some too fast.  But when they arrive, go with it.  I can't force the perfect apartment to appear, or job or anything.  I'd rather do it right than rush.  Or worse watch it pass you by. 

I don't know what else to say without rambling.  Sometimes you have to wait.  Keep an eye open for the right moment or idea. 

What a crazy week!

This will be a bit of a long post, a lot to catch up on.  But I've got energy, tea and Doritos, let's do this. 

Wednesday I went to work and trained which was lovely, but I checked my email after and learned I got into grad school.  Or half at least.  (Dual Program)  I don't think I stopped squeaking.  Mouth moved for a bit, but I don't think I got anything out besides "Oh my god..."  What an honor.  I still need to get into the other half and try and get aid, but knowing they saw the potential was astounding.  So, the first one.  Don't be scared when your dreams come true.  When you do what you love, your dreams will come true, just don't be scared when it actually happens.  It's okay. 


Be thankful for every kindness.  When you are fortunate enough to be around amazing, kind people who treat you well or give you gifts be thankful. Don't expect it, or demand it, but when it happens be in the moment, love it and be thankful.  But from the big to the little they are all important and special.  Gifts, phone calls, a hug, anything.

When an adventure comes knocking, say yes!!  Let's go see a live blues band at an amazing blues club.  Say yes.  Opportunities aren't always there, so take a chance, try it.  Being tired, cranky, pmsing and lazy aren't good enough excuses to skip out on life's great adventures and moments.  Sometimes it might suck, it isn't a good enough reason to not try.  Don't say no to adventures!

Being a grown up isn't a good reason to stop all childish things.  They were amazing then and some should not be left in the past.  Two nights ago I went to a playground and got on the swings.  I missed that so much.  A group of us just played like kids.  Not damaging anything or being reckless but just enjoying playing.  That innocence and joy.  Often times grownups are penalized for playing with children's toys, but we need that reckless, unbridled fun.  Go out and play!


Love often and a lot!  Yesterday I went to a few of my friend's high school graduation.  Pomp and circumstance makes me a little bitter, and it is often really hot and icky.  Still, I loved those graduates and seeing the love the crowd had for each graduate was overwhelming.  We went to dinner and toast after toast was so full of love.  Life is better that way.  Don't be stingy with your love.

Anyways, I'm going to get away from my computer and find some inspiration for today's post.  Though I am so glad to catch up on here.